things to blog

1) boredom: the distinguishing characteristic of Man (also, doing things past the point of satiation)

2) sense of peace/calm - things welling up

3) want to write about the female spider devouring the male after sex - discussion of the provenance of that story

4) brain full but rustling - a movement in the cranial underbrush

5) feminist plays starring feminized actresses - contradictory?

6) overheard these two guys talking on the train about acting and stunt men and teeth

7) the rear-window wiper flicking back and forth like the tail of a large ruminant on the African savanna...

8)

thoughts on Christianity, capitalism and vain striving

i was thinking about this killing that just happened in Binghampton, NY, in which a Vietnamese man went on a rampage and killed over a dozen people after being fired from his job. i was thinking about how economic woes and a feeling of striving for something that you couldn't possibly gain could make you insane and murderous, and this reminded me of Christianity's message that worldly striving and ambition are not useful or beneficial and will lead to mental agony, etc. - and i was thinking that maybe that's more of a way of coping with unachievable desires than anything else, so that christianity is a religion for economic recessions. maybe buddhism's passivity, as loosely interpreted (by me), also springs from this sense that striving in this world is vain not only because there's a better world after this one but also because, in this climate of economic inequality, there's basically no way that you'll get the things that you're striving for anyway. Or something like that.